Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in calibaby5's LiveJournal:

Saturday, January 7th, 2006
4:53 pm	Today I have been doing okay... for a Saturday that is. I start back at school for good on Monday and i travel back tomorrow. You know what is so tempting is being at home. My mom buys so much food when she knows im trying not to eat and its right there in my face i hate it. At school im going to buy all food that is healthy and absolutley hate to eat. That way when im hungry i have no choice but to eat unhealthy foods. I like the way that sounds, we will see how it goes. I had to take the Praxis exam today it was horrible but as far as my eating is going: -1 coffee -1 English Muffin -1 egg -2c salad -light ranch dressing -balogne sandwich (dont ask i dont even like balogne) Right now it is 5:00 and my mom is starting to cook Chicken Enchaladas and my friends and i r going out later. we'll see how well i do i really want to restrict. I also did: - 10 min eliptical - 10 min. treadmill - 10 min. on bike - 200 situps Current Mood: lethargic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 26th, 2005
1:05 am	ewww i feel at my heaviest weight ever... im not kidding you, i've been home from college on xmas break for one week and i have gained 7lbs. i've just went into over drive. my jeans r tight on me..... OMMMGGGGG i just feel like complete shit. i feel better after being on here for awhile though. tomorrow im going shopping alllll day so that will be good walking, and im gonna run later on!!!! UHHHH shoot me i hate being at home :0 Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 17th, 2005
5:09 pm	friendship well so far here is what i ate: 12oz. coffee 1 diet dr. pepper 12 cheese cubes 2 rice cakes workout: 45min cardio (bootcamp @ the rec) friendship is funny when u have been friends with someone for so long. u show anger and the next day they act like nothing happened and everything is back to normal. its wierd, is this just the way friends act? or are they showing i don't care attitude? it's hard to please everyone, and sometimes u just can't. who suffers tho, the bf or the friends. your girls are always first, but are they really your girls or just forced to be because you live together? i question my relationships with people daily. is this ok to do because i always thought friendships should never be questioned... they just exist. i watched run's house on mtv last night and i really liked what he says at the end of the shows....always motivating quotes in his bathtub. it's pretty cool. Don't let anyone stop you from reaching your future. u are the only person that will be able to reach it, and you can't depend on anyone to hold your hand to get you there, or hold you back. i can't wait to go home and see my family. School is overwhelming right now and so are all of my influences. it's annoying almost. i need a beer;) jk that would not help me reach my goals and i have some huge goals i want to reach. staystrong and prove yourself to someone.....everyone deserves a lil love... and i luv all :) (Comment on this)
Monday, October 31st, 2005
10:47 am	striking out well my goal for today was to drop ten lbs. starting from oct. 1st. i weighed myself this morning and i dropped 2lbs :( strike one. so im making the same goal for the month of november. by thanksgiving, ten pounds WILL be dropped. i dont want another strike two so hopefully i'll really succeed at this attempt. so far today current time (10:50am): 24oz. coffee (lowfat creamer, 0 cal sugar) 2 glasses of water 15 carrot sticks (sparatically eaten by 3:00pm) 1 campbell's soup to go (plan to eat around 5pm) the hard part is restricting once i get done from my chemistry lab, which runs from 6-8:30... im always starving after that. we'll see if i can do this.... one slow ass day at a time (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 9th, 2005
11:32 pm	Sunday Hello everyone, better i can definetely see improvement each day. I went to church this morning and had 1c of coffee before i left. i needed more tho, because i was def. falling asleep. i prayed for skininess :) I also went to the Brown's ftbll game with my family. I did good i ate nachos and hot chocolate at the game but i threw them up a few minutes later. 1/2 sub coffee 2 diet cokes perch baked beans water tomorrow will be cool bc I don't have classes and i'm still at home. im going to try to make it in to this dr. appt. if they have oppenings and go shopping. im in total need to shoes and something cute for halloween. OK have a great monday Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Friday, October 7th, 2005
11:40 pm	back in action Today has been difficult but motivating. I thought wow.... it's seven weeks into school and i look like complete shit. I am now home on fall break I'm failing 2 classes I'm fat I eat everything in sight I gained all the weight back i previously lost this summer here is what im thinking.... i started dating this guy... he is totally amazing. I love everything about him we have so much fun together but i feel like nothing else is important. Should i just break up with this guy? sometimes i feel that I would be better off but i don't know?!? I can't seem spending more than a few days without him :( I dont really know what to do but I suddenly have sparked motivation to start writing again and to keep everyone who cares updated on my damn amazing life :p I'm home for fall break until Tuesday. I got in at 8pm and went to a Chinese buffet with my family---- SICK i feel like dying right now. Here is today's list of food: -coffee -diet dr. pepper -lite cranberry juice (2 glasses) -4 bottled waters -2 diet cokes salad with bacon, cheese ranch dressing small french fry sweet and sour chicken 1c general tso chicken 1c chocolate pudding 3 chinese buscuits 2 chicken wings someone just kick my ass right now GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
2:35 pm	motivated Ever since i saw all these skinny ass freshmen move into college--i've been motivated to really drop the weight. Eating diary so far: 16oz Coffee 21oz Diet Pepsi 1 granola bar (90 cals- special K) i will update the rest later Current Mood: drained (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 13th, 2005
4:51 pm	back to college--- finally! I got back today and have been busy non stop. I havn't ate much and i know im burning cals because im sweating like crazy. im tired right now its mid-day and my baby is on his way... haha that rhymes. I MISS him i havnt seen him in 10 days. hope he likes my new brunette style :0 so nervous just waiting for him to knock on my door :/ the only thing i have ate today was: 1 english muffin 1/2 c penut butter 1 diet 7 up a ton of water.... IM STARVING :( Current Mood: anxious (5 Comments |Comment on this)
12:49 am	tired hola... thought i would post my eating journal today... worked at a golf outing all day...made 120 bucks which went straight to my mom for school :( then i went to ab's house to say bye to some friends since i leave for college tomorrow: here it goes, 5 lite beers 1/2 cup rigatoni 1/2 cp cabbage noodles 1 pc of chicken 2 diet cokes 4 bites pasta salad wow that's alot for supposedly not hardley eating.... oh and no exercise today either :0 tomorrow i go to school i WILL workout GOODNITE! (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 11th, 2005
11:42 pm	foods today Today i Did AMAZING!!!!! 1c chicken broth a fistful of egg salad (no bread) 1c coffee 2 diet cokes 1/2 buffalo chkn wrap (purged) 2 pcs. of bread (purged) even tho i purged, it wasn't a lot bc i waited too long bc my friends parents wouldn't leave but as soon as they did we both hit the bathroom and got rid as much as possible. I think i consumed maybe half of it. we also went jogging from her house to mine which is approx. 2 miles, maybe a lil less bc we cut thru this lil path. I got my hair dyed today it looks horrible. maybe im not used to it. i pulled a nicky hilton. totally blonde to nearly black. i have blue eyes so ppl have told me i look amazing but im still getting used to it. I just hope Julius likes it bc i really do look different so who knows what he will say :0 i dont really care its something i always wanted to try...... i think everyone should have that attitude. Today went well i just cant wait to get back to bg because being at home is killing me.... IM SO BORED and there's so much food to just consume everywhere :( just get me back to school im ready for a change i did with my hair, im ready to change my body, and im moving so everything will be fresh and NEW!!!! love it. its my senior year so im excited to see what it has in store for me:) thanks for everyone's support love you all! Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
10:57 am	motivated I'm really motivated not just to eat healthy today, but just to get a lot of stuff done around here and get pumped to see Julius again at college. i met him when i was living up at bg for the summer and he is absolutley amazing. we talk 4-5 times a day and we have so much fun together. i really wanna look good for him. he likes thicker girls but i just wanna have a tight ass body, everything in perks u feel me. well it's 11am and so far i have had nothing. sleeping in helps because you can really have less of a day to eat. i'm getting my hair done today at 4!!! YAy no more blonde.... brown and sophisticated. very excited. anyways i'll post later on tonite when and let you know how my eating has went. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
12:04 am	working hard I am new at this journal thing. I am mostly interested in ED sites. I <3 them!!!! I worked out some today but not as much as i wanted to. I was too tired and I really wanted to lay out... so i did that instead. I ran for about 10 minutes and powerwalked for 30min. I am really trying hard....I need motivation tips and stamina tips!!! HELP ME PLEASE!!! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 9th, 2005
1:21 am	fed up I'm fed up with this eating thing. It sucks because it is such a vicious cycle. I mean....i can do so well M-Thurs. then the rest of the weekend i totally eat like crazy. non-stop fast food, never work out, and i drink like a fish at the bar. eww its disguisting and im done with it. its been a continuous cycle of this process ALLLLL Summer. :( gross! im starting my binge tomorrow to shrink my stomach down.... I'm totally done tomorrow im going shopping with my mom and im going to try so hard. I need sleep right now im about to pass out. (Comment on this)